My family left no chair for me at my brother’s welcome-home dinner. Dad raised his glass and said, “Some people are born to command.” He never looked at me. To them, I was the daughter who quit military academy and disappeared. So I stayed quiet. Until the next morning, a drill sergeant saw me on my brother’s training base, snapped into a salute, and said one word that made his rifle hit the dirt: “General.”

Aunt Lydia leaned toward me later, flushed from wine.

“Mara, are you still doing that private contracting thing?”

“Something like that.”

“Still dressing in black too?” she laughed. “Still in that phase?” I smiled. “Some uniforms don’t come in color.”

She laughed because she thought I was joking. Later, I cleared plates I had barely eaten from. No one asked me to. They never had to. In this family, if I made myself useful enough, people forgot to be disappointed in me.

In the kitchen, cold water ran over my wrists. The window above the sink reflected my face: thirty-one, tired, calm, unreadable. Behind me, the dining room laughed.